Each day is busy, messy and demanding when you are a mother. Frustrations build up and the fighting can be maddening! However, I received a beautiful reminder this week about the sacredness of time and how quickly the days wash onto shore. The reminder came in the form of old videos replaying one of the happiest years of my life. The memories were discovered while doing a search for something entirely different. I watched each video and smiled at the wonderful memories! I had three beautiful boys three years old and younger. Yes, it was exhausting but it was also magical! I waited a very long time to be a mother. Finally, ten years into my marriage, I had three boys!
It was the year 2008 and everyday was beautiful. I relished and thanked my God for every single second with these fellows!
One baby was born to me and the other two were in the final process of adoption. They were mine all mine! I cherished their every move and laughed at every funny thing they said.
As I watched those videos and remember being such a joyful mom, I felt convicted. I knew I didn't appreciate my children like I once did. The house is always messy, money is always tight, my thoughts are always jumbled. The laundry is never done, the to-do list is always long and the thank yous never come. The boys are no longer chunky, squishy and cuddly and I don't get to dress them any way that I choose. (I miss that so much!!) The fights have gotten more physical and the competition between them has gotten fierce. However,watching the old videos reminded me of the first moments that God finally brought me to motherhood. I cherished my boys even as they were still in diapers and completely dependent on me. I couldn't get out of the house much because it was just too hard with three babies. I didn't care! I was so grateful to me a mother. I knew heartfelt prayers had been so richly answered and I appreciated the moments. Those feelings came back to me like a rush of love. I want to get back to this! I have been so richly blessed with these boys and they have brought me so much joy, so many memories and have enriched my soul. Those days were treasures but so is today as well as tomorrow! Every second I will have with them is beautiful. The treasure of each day was always there, I just needed a reminder.
My answered prayers are getting so big!!
